when everything just feels sad

When people die young, I think of my family. I think of my dad, who never met the man I married, who never saw me complete college, grad school, move across country and start a life of my own. He missed my wedding, my children being born, all of the sporting events that are attended by so many amazing Baby Boomers! Ugh.

I realize their is no promised amount of time in life and know that for the most part our every day world is very confined to our own street numbers. Yet, when someone in my age range dies, a mother of three girls with a husband who is so kind (reminding me completely of my brother), I fight a very pissed off reaction to the whole thing.

Perspective is important in life -- knowing that the amount of people who suffer tragedies is crazy high -- but this is something that is hitting MY here and now and the whole community that knows and cares for this family. It is a wake up call that we never know our future -- despite the best plans we may make. Losses of this magnitude that reside in one single soul should make us all sit back and realize that oftentimes we don't know our own worth -- the magnitude our singular life plays on so many. Despite "knowing" her for years we were not close friends. My heart breaks over not knowing her .