elation to deflation

After delirious level elation yesterday, scheduling my hysterectomy at Mayo, today I hit a crazy time low. I didn't see this coming. The realization of the fact that I have to have a major surgery that I never wanted, and the added on complication of a coil that hopefully isn't in a too vascular-y area, is beyond sad to me at this moment, exactly on this day -- who knows how it will feel tomorrow and I know never to take any emotion at this point as solid. My poor husband is just trying to keep up but then cannot resist lamenting over the new treadmill I wanted but still haven't been able to use because my neck and back are crazy messes.